C H O S E I 'S W E B J O U R N A L

Can you believe it?
My real server/blog:
http://funahara.com/blog/
Whatever shut down, FUUUUUUUCCKK

So, I have to comeback here to update and stay till fix it.
Writing diary is my habits and I don’t have to publish, but if I don’t express anything outside, I become inssssaaaane!

日本語でも書けるのでここで更新して行くがボケよ！

FUCK!
this one came from last year's journal:
I just don't like it.
When I come to Japan, I have little twitches on my right eyelid. It must come from nervousness. I just don't like it and never happened in USA. I think me to go back to US as soon as possible, I just don't like it. I just don't like it. Japan is not my country, neither China and Korea, I just don't like it. PLEASE HELP!

it moves without consciousness and I don't see on a mirror; it very uncomfortable. It was true that you said I had stiff neck last time, I was in Japan for two months and I started taking expensive chinese ginseng remedy from traditional Chinese medicine and have spent 200,000 yen for just two months. But the results was excellent. I could not get US drugs in here and was still not approved by Japanese FDA; was impossible to import from US. This time as for just daytime or morning, the eyelid to the right has caused the subtle spasm. It started out two days ago.

uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu
Some people are not happy in their birthplace, already from time of Renaissance, many many scholars and artists when they return to their own birthplace, heard that they become a depressive. Recently, I read that Hans Christian Andersen returns to Denmark that it becomes a suffer from depression, wrote the fairy tale of that kind of tragedy. Why it probably is what? Was I been trapped or mentally pressed by what? I understand the reason to come to Japan because some, also purpose understands, but in my case, it's quickly from the time where exactly it passes exactly one week, this kind of sign starts. I hate this kind of the symptoms. I tried to figure it out for last 15 years to meet my shrink and found out many reasons. Going back to my earliest memory and my lifetime story from very early stage, to inspect. To research also the history of the family, to go into the detail whether as me the person who is the same condition is the kindred or the ancestor. Many things, my entire environment and all my surroundings are effecting me as a human, it make me angry and sad thus I feel happiness. Is this confronting methods to confuse my theory? Tell me. Then, what shall I do it? Shall I do something meaningful for sake of self complacency? No, neither more nor less than do I have to do anything for it. Does God exist, I do not know, but perhaps universe exists. language is something which was accidentally made by some advanced mammal, the word "God" is something which was created by accident. Power above that may exists, but being able to meet, here it does not express that.
I guess I'm sleeping or not up yet.

Leave me alone!
One strange thing, I want to say about banking system. When I was living in Japan during late 1960's to early 1970's, there was a ATM already existed and US were not. Why am I saying those things? I just went to a bank in my town and I felt Japanese culture are still much more kinder and gentler than any other country. But, they are sometimes too polite that make me very uncomfortable. I guess I have male Premenstrual Syndrome or the human male menopause.

Manic depression
Merely now, I am midst of bipolar disorder. It has entered into the depression completely. This happens every year, the beginning of spring seasons with being something which is said, it does, but there is a possibility of being treated. Being to be an exogenous cause, I will be all right. I can stay in Japan just one week, that's it. If it's more than one week, I start feeling miserable.

sign of spring
Well, I entered the depression completely, I can confirm this morning, today, this second and now. lololololol Those where it sneaks away from this state are very difficult problem. It'll be funny moment; varying time continues. to be contn'd, contn'd, contn'd and contn'd. lololololol

SEE THIS WAS LAST YEAR, NOW IT'S HAPPENING NOW, U FUCK!

I thought that I'll quit this webjournal today.

let me think about it.
Anyway, I start new blog on my ownsite:

for English:

http://funahara.com/blog/index.php?blog=5

for Japs:

http://www.funahara.com/blog/

I just started yesterday, and I was going move all my this journal to the other.
?????

I guess I should write why I'm not happy?
I AM HAPPY PERSON PERIOD! When I write something on my English Blog, Only that time is unhappy mood and that's my emotional OUTLET!
I'm very very very happy, la la la la♪

I’ve become a technical adviser for Broadcast & Professional AV systems Business Unit, Systems Business Group, Panasonic AVC Network Company, Matsushita Electric Industrial Co., Ltd. This is a big accomplishment, because, I became DVX user and active member of the DVX fan site in Japan. It is honorable experience and I will write article about up coming HVX 200 high definition 24p camera. I also working with Phil Parmet who does cinematography and his recent credit is upcoming Rob Zombie’s The Devil’s Reject.

Yo,

I haven't updated my English journal for more than a month.
Well, I had several reasons:
You know I got groin pull injuries then I went to Hawaii and to recoup my health then I went to Japan to vote. That was fine experience, then I came back to U.S. ; do you know what happened to me, my job that supports to start right away after my arrival. And then, my schedule had been changed abruptly and I had to kill my time to wait until new job starts.
That sucks, man! I guess that my instincts told me about new job, I did not feel perfectly good about it.

I can tell my true feeling・・・・・・・・・・
yes, I am always right, I guess I have to make a decision as soon as possible.

I almost forgot tell you that during last past two weeks I got Bronchitis then Pharyngitis, was mess and I finally got better yesterday, it was kind of my fault I partied toooooo hard then I got sore throat, was my first symptom of been getting sick.

My Doc prescribed me an antibiotics and I thought, I felt better after two days later since I started taking pills.

Then I made another mistake that I started practicing my Glidecam operation.
I was incredibly toooo stuuuupid: my abilities excel my confident or my confident excel my abilities????
dunno・・・・・

I got to grow up now.

the hardware of the computer problem or the software problem happens anywhere, but
this time perhaps there is a problem in the server of dot.mac of the apple eather iblog itself.
I'm in Japan now and what is my problem: I'm fixing bug of the my blog software that can't work properly.
Man, it's bummer! I like livejornal, but for Japanese, I like to use Blogwabe studio and iblog soft, because it really good for setup pictures viewer than livejornal. And I hate Japanese commercial rental blog system that looks so stupid always.
I speak a lot in Japanese now and I still have problem speaking in Japanese (I also have problem speaking in English, I admit of course)
Well, Last night was fun until I got too much alcohol and I don't feel well today. Guess what "HANGOVER!"
Why I can't control my stupidity.

You maybe unparalleled even wide world but in Japan, there is a unique direct democracy system. It called "Supreme Court Judge National Examination", when the foreigner who doesn’t know the actual system, it is something how the Japanese that may be misunderstood, whether you take the interest which is strong in judgment. Actually the face of Supreme Court Judge and even their names; it has not permeated to majority of Japanese citizen completely.

National examination that started in 1949 of 2 years later and Japan constitution enforcement started also, this time, it is the 20th commemoration conference.
But, past with the examination of 19 times, there is no example, which the Supreme Court judge can make stop really. Of course, it makes who stop and either the good or bad, but position of the Supreme Court judge is supported positively by this democratic examination, also being it is inexpressible, it does. For the normal voter, being the case that it has been arranged only the name which is seen for the first time, with that "the right or fault? "With being required immediate answer, because we don’t know their story, don't you think? Because it is lacking in effectiveness even in remainder, when we assume that ahead this, constitution is amended, it probably is the system which first becomes abolition candidacy.

woops, if I have kid, shall I call her Japan? I have a few friends called China, a matter fact, the Jefferson Airplane's Grace Slick and Paul Kantner's daughters name is China. I have met America, Malaya, Pilippe, Tonga, Solomon, France and etc. Oh even City name, like Paris, Rome, Kobe (that I came from originally), Nara, Venice and ・・・uuummm, I don't remember,
But I never met anyone named Japan. So I have kid now call it Japan, how about that. Is she cute?

Mubarak's Victory, Yulia Tymoshenko's downfall,
Okay tomorrow is Japan's time. I'm here for voting Japanese parliament member (a member of the House of Representatives).
It seems that it will be a landslide victory for the The Liberal Democratic Party. This prediction are written on everywhere foreign press.
It'll be The Liberal Democratic Party, Of course you know it fact that LDP rule the entire Japan past 50 years (except socialist party ruled about 3 years?)
The poll shows that LDP has big margin to the rival parties. What was happened in Japan last 30 days, the Prime Minister Juinichiro Koizumi has called an early election over postal privatization dispute between in an own party, well it does not happened in a party itself.
Make it short, this election is important step for Japan. I'll tell you more latter.

The vog cover over the island pretty much here, west wind is nice.
Yes, I'm finally enjoying my real vacation now.

I got my laughing habit from my next neighbor. But my real laughing habit that I was copying one weird guy in my middle school who was basketball star and he was pretty smart guy but he was nut case. He actually broke two of my rib cage ( he punched me: half joke and half serious) and he did not apologise me. I went to the doctor and X-ray could not capture the rupture, but my rib cage became abnormal looking (one side pops up than the other) and I told him that you broke my rib cage. He got mad at me and he said I'm lying. His name is Shinobu Ishida (this is true story and that's his real name). I don't speak to him after that, also he went to technical school instead go to high school. I don't know where he is at now. And next time, if I see him, I'll tell him again "You broke my rib cage".

yep, I got a new passport and will be effective until 2015, wow! I'll be an old men, well, I am old men now. It took only 3 hours and was ready, so quick. It's so privilege to live in New York City, Everything makes so fast and efficient; I can't live in country side. Thus, I don't hate country side, but I'd rather live in a city and by the ocean.
I got tickets to Hawaii and Japan, It's time to clean my house, my groin pull injury got almost better and I feel really good.
It's important to feel really good. One thing, I still can't carry heavy stuff, thank god, I don't have to carry infant baby now.
That will kill me.
So next thing, I have to do is relax and take care myself. No pressure, no, hassle, no complaint, also important thing is: not to obligate to do anything now.

It's a kind of hassle to design new web log. I just started using iBlog and I like Blogwave Studio is easier to use, but Blogwave got much slower and out of business now. What is the solution, Live journal is the another easy one, but uploading picture is pain in my neck, I don't know. I tried Movable Type and Bloggers, also customized XML to integrated my own blog. I tried several way but none of them are great. If you know the solution, let me know.

My original plan was: I was leaving to Hawaii around 20th, but I had go to homeland security office (i ain't terrorist, I had a business to do) and I went to see my doc ( kaz, my leg was hurting, you know what? I got groin pull injuries; like Yankees short stop Jitter had it, also Jason Giambi had it. My doc told me that I used steroid (it was his joke, come on! ). So, he gave me a cox-2 painkiller and was soooo strong, two days latter my pain was gone. That was another reason, I was delayed to leave; I don’t wanna sit on an airplane's seat for long time.

Yo, guess what, I got Glidecam smooth shooter, but I can’t use now, too bad, I really wanted shoot last sequence of the movie that I shot this summer’s final location, oh well. Next time.

my pain of thighbone (the proximal bone of the hind) got eased last night, i got a cane from the Bigelow that helped me a lot. I guess.

3 weeks ago, it was a hot day in the morning, I was wearing the sandal and the tip of the sandal had caught in the edge of the last step of the stairway; I was carrying up heavy camera equipment and material, I have tumble flat forward to the ground. I was subconsciously protecting the camera, but everything was visible in slow motion. When transporting heavy ones, the heavy duty shoes must be worn, be sure. Dumb! After practicing the Glidecam two days ago, my legs and loins muscle start hurting, and it doesn't go away even three days latter. If it'll still persist to Monday, I must go to see the doctor. It must cause by that falling incident.

I haven't update my journal last few days and it took long time to write in English cause I have something important thing to do soon, in fact next Friday will be a big day. I'll be celebrating my 32nd years anniversary in this country.

I guess that I should start writing my real story now. It’s time now. When I was attending New York University during my school days, everything changed drastically. What was the change? Well, it’s difficult to say and it was three big incidents happened almost same time.

First one was: I got stolen my portfolio of my art work and actual paintings, when I arrived in New York City on a first night at Times Square.

Second: I got beat up by bunch of Japanese thugs, caused by my background. ( Would you like to know my real background? NO, not now)
It pretty ugly scene and two Japanese Artists helped me, they are Minoru Yoshida and
Masami (Kuci) Masuta. Without those two my big brother, I’m not survived in New York City.

Third: I lost my girlfriend in Japan was really heart my feeling and she damage me pretty bad.

Those first two things made me away from Japanese community in New York and third incident made me started playing punk rock scene in New York, I had big influence from to-be-my-X and her best friend "Tim Smith" in San Francisco. But my real motivations were those above three.

This month will be another busy month. We haven't finished principle photography of my new movie that call it temporally title "Still Normal" yet; also, I have to finish editing two jobs and then, I'm going to Hawaii and Japan. Is this possible?

This coming Wednesday is another big shooting day. Well, things are going pretty much smoothly and I don’t have any complaint, I guess Mr. Ali really gave me a good luck and mystical power.

Anyhow, one regret that I have now, I haven’t done much physical excises these days, 30 minutes training a day is not enough, even when I was younger, I spent at least 2 hours every day.